Okay so I gave myself the goal of losing my weight by the time I turned 30. And let me just tell you it's a slow process. I have lost 14 lbs, but I am no where near where I want to be. It is so hard to find what is going to work for me. And every time I turn around there is something else that comes up to derail me. I am so over it!!!!!
I am tired of the way I look. I am tired of the struggle! I just want to be healthy and happy and not constantly be worried about the scale! I want to fit into normal size clothes. Take a picture with friends and not only see my fat rolls. I want to feel sexy again. I want to put on a cute dress and stilettos and WOW my husband! Are these things that are too much to ask?
When did it get this bad? When did I lose all control? So why is getting there so hard? Way am I allowing myself to be a slave to food and laziness? I don't let anyone else control me, so why do I let these things control me? I have so many goals in my life and I can't accomplish them being this heavy. And I don't want my kids to remember me this way.
Is there a way to balance everything? Can you eat right 95% of the time and then splurge on special occasions? Or is manic dieting and exercising all the time no break?
I know this blog had a lot more questions than statements, but that is kind of where I am right now. I don't know if I need to sign up for the Biggest Loser or if I need to call everyone's friend Jenny! I just know that something needs to be done!
So I am stating a goal right now and I want everyone to hold me accountable. On my birthday, I am buying a really cute dress and really spiky heels!!! And I will post a before and after picture. And from here on, I will be posting every week about my weight loss or gain. So if anyone has any suggestions about how I can keep on task or workouts that I can do I would really appreciate it!
Love you all!
Holly
Monday, September 20, 2010
Monday, September 6, 2010
Polishing the Pulpit.
Hello all!!!!!!!
Sorry it has been a while but it has been really busy at the Stephens' house. Lucas traveled to Colorado Springs for his job and then our congregation hosted a wonderful lectureship called Polishing the Pulpit and I got to go to my very first UT football game!
First Polishing the Pulpit. This is an amazing event that comes to Sevierville every August. There are several speakers. And I can honestly say that being around that many member of the Church is truly uplifting! Going there really inspires me to increase in the knowledge of His Word and start writing. One day I would love to be a speaker myself. If any of you get a chance to come and be apart I would definitely recommend it. These events are there not just for preachers but it is there for all of us. There were lessons on homeschooling, marriage, and lessons for teens. It really is for everyone! And you get to meet so many great people! Again, I just have to say that if you ever get to go you really need to.
Now my first football game. My family is originally from Kentucky so the fact that I am a full blown Tennessee girl really drives them nuts! I can't help it! I have lived in Tennessee longer than I have lived anywhere and so therefore MY BLOOD IS ORANGE PEOPLE!!!! LOL, please don't disown me! :D Anyways, I was able to go with two of my girlfriends and we had an absolute blast! I do have to say that I am really glad that I have been working on my cardio because we were all over that campus! But i am so glad we did it because we got to see everything! I got my picture in front of the torch, the rock (by the way, Buffy I saw the picture you took and I soooo owe you! LOL!), and got to watch the VOL Walk, and the Band come down! It was perfect! Beautiful day and wonderful friends to share it with. And I totally got the traditions and got into it along with everyone else! I am hooked and can't wait to take the kids to their first ballgame! V.......O.......L.........S V.O.L.S Go Vols Go!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I promise that I will be blogging a lot more this week. I've got the 60 and over dinner this Saturday so I can't wait to tell you all about it! Until next time, God Bless you all and have a great Holiday week.
Love you all,
Holly
Sorry it has been a while but it has been really busy at the Stephens' house. Lucas traveled to Colorado Springs for his job and then our congregation hosted a wonderful lectureship called Polishing the Pulpit and I got to go to my very first UT football game!
First Polishing the Pulpit. This is an amazing event that comes to Sevierville every August. There are several speakers. And I can honestly say that being around that many member of the Church is truly uplifting! Going there really inspires me to increase in the knowledge of His Word and start writing. One day I would love to be a speaker myself. If any of you get a chance to come and be apart I would definitely recommend it. These events are there not just for preachers but it is there for all of us. There were lessons on homeschooling, marriage, and lessons for teens. It really is for everyone! And you get to meet so many great people! Again, I just have to say that if you ever get to go you really need to.
Now my first football game. My family is originally from Kentucky so the fact that I am a full blown Tennessee girl really drives them nuts! I can't help it! I have lived in Tennessee longer than I have lived anywhere and so therefore MY BLOOD IS ORANGE PEOPLE!!!! LOL, please don't disown me! :D Anyways, I was able to go with two of my girlfriends and we had an absolute blast! I do have to say that I am really glad that I have been working on my cardio because we were all over that campus! But i am so glad we did it because we got to see everything! I got my picture in front of the torch, the rock (by the way, Buffy I saw the picture you took and I soooo owe you! LOL!), and got to watch the VOL Walk, and the Band come down! It was perfect! Beautiful day and wonderful friends to share it with. And I totally got the traditions and got into it along with everyone else! I am hooked and can't wait to take the kids to their first ballgame! V.......O.......L.........S V.O.L.S Go Vols Go!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I promise that I will be blogging a lot more this week. I've got the 60 and over dinner this Saturday so I can't wait to tell you all about it! Until next time, God Bless you all and have a great Holiday week.
Love you all,
Holly
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